Nov. 15th, 2013 09:51 am
pissed off
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little_firestarI just had an argument with my fathger-which escalated into an argument with my brother. and for once in my life, I am grateful that mum decided to stay out of this-otherwise I would have argued with ehr too.
I am on edge, I am well aware of this, but I have had a fever for the last few days, incessanr headaches, my eyes are hurting and dry and I lacked of sleep. And yet, I have been going to work as well, because my brother can't stand being inn-even if he didn't have the fever- but hey, I am a woman, so, if no one can take my place but I am ill, who cares? I am suppossed to do so, all right?
So, yeah, I am not well.
Today Drew retirned- even if I hadn't been told so- and first thing first, he lectured me. I talked back, and my father overheard the argument. And what did he do?
"LEARN TO RESPECT YOUR BROTHER" and he didn't ven try to listen to me. But why should he? Her was the one who accised me of wanting to not go to school because of bad grades when, in truth, I was having pancreatic deasese back in high school. But did he listen to me when I tried to explain myself? No. I had to bed to change my doctor-who supported him- to actually get diagnosed over half an year later.
Lately, with Drew, had been happening the same thing. Drew is... complicated. always on edge, he explodes for less than nothing, even for just soemone looking in his general direction. and when he explodes without reasosn, or he accuses me of soemthing that maybe I did because someone else told me it was supposed to be done that way... I get mad, because I can stand just so much water, and eventually the last drop arrives.
And when it did, it's always my fault.
I am on edge, I am well aware of this, but I have had a fever for the last few days, incessanr headaches, my eyes are hurting and dry and I lacked of sleep. And yet, I have been going to work as well, because my brother can't stand being inn-even if he didn't have the fever- but hey, I am a woman, so, if no one can take my place but I am ill, who cares? I am suppossed to do so, all right?
So, yeah, I am not well.
Today Drew retirned- even if I hadn't been told so- and first thing first, he lectured me. I talked back, and my father overheard the argument. And what did he do?
"LEARN TO RESPECT YOUR BROTHER" and he didn't ven try to listen to me. But why should he? Her was the one who accised me of wanting to not go to school because of bad grades when, in truth, I was having pancreatic deasese back in high school. But did he listen to me when I tried to explain myself? No. I had to bed to change my doctor-who supported him- to actually get diagnosed over half an year later.
Lately, with Drew, had been happening the same thing. Drew is... complicated. always on edge, he explodes for less than nothing, even for just soemone looking in his general direction. and when he explodes without reasosn, or he accuses me of soemthing that maybe I did because someone else told me it was supposed to be done that way... I get mad, because I can stand just so much water, and eventually the last drop arrives.
And when it did, it's always my fault.
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