Didn't mean to (or embarassing discoveries)

[little_firestar]

Ok, I swear to God, I didn't do it on purpose. It just... happened, and in now way I can be blamed for it.
it just... it happened, and I didn't mean for it. I mean, it was soemthing I could have gone on without knowing it, that's for sure.
because....I mean...
ok, let's try to talk soem sense into this conversation, shall we?
last week, my parents celbrated their 31th anniversay (wedding, but they've been together since April 1979. seems such a long time ago...). Anyway, we have decided on a a no gifts thing, because, with the economy being at it is, everything that's not necessary it's simply not necessary. So, I though, why don't making them  soemthing just, sweet and nice?
And, since while I was putting in order a wardarobe in my grabndparents' house I happened to find the mails they excahnged since the day they met, and the box they were in was quite, well, it was almost not a box any longer, I thought of putting them in cronological order, putting a ribbon arund them as a seal and them put the envelopes in a nice box, or a nice bag, kind like one of the boutiques... and so...
I swear, I didn't red them, because, well, I barely read my mail, and it was private, so, you know? I didn't. just the dates, to put them in order, just them.
But then, after I gave the bag to mum.... (dad's not so interested in this kind of things, nowadays. besides, there was his favorite team on, still does).
She told me to read them. because I'm family, because basically I'm one of the few people she really trusts and kind of try to understand her and the problems she goes through, and "there is nothing unconvenient".
And it was true. Untill a certain point..
Untill a certain point where I barely resisted the urge to scream and hide my head in the sand, because, well...
Ok, both my parents are children of the '60, and being teenagers/young adults in the seventies, they've been through the sexual revolution, OI knew it. I can do the math, and I've always knew my mother has always been kind of a free spirit and pretty hippy (not in the drug sense. that's the only thing I'm sure of. or at least, I think) but... I have to say, I've always saw her more like a... prude, even if she has never had probelms adressing the sex issues while talking with me in teh past (I'm the oen who feels the urge to hide her ehad in the sand., beleive me, you don't wnat me to tell you what she told me one time I told her that my phone was vibrating into my pant's poket).
Just, knowing that... I mean...ok, staring August, her letters weren't prude and, well, not unconvenient, but, I think just unconvenient for a daughter to read, kind of embarassing.
I just hope that... she didn't remember she has written about all forms of sex, because, otherwise, I swear... I mean.... at a certain point, the most pudic thing she wrote was "maybe we should tune down the talk about our intimate moments together. I think that jerk of the mail guy is stealing our letters ...." and....I mean...
Ok, just say that I could go on without knowing it.

Comments

[little-firestar.livejournal.com]

no, ma, qui è il bello... quando ho accennato a questa cosa, la risposta è stata:
"non è nulla che la maggior parte dei giovani abbia mai fatto, e sopratutto, non è nulla che nemmeno tu abbia mai provato, ci scommetto, quindi non c'è nulla di cui vergognari. sono cose del tutto naturali, che tra me e tuo padre, per giunta, sono successe per amore. preferisco che tu sappia che noi eravamo come tutti, piuttosto di fare la moralista con te che hai quasi trent'anni, facendoti credere che tuo padre ed io ci limitavamo a camminare per mano e fare la moralisat, dando dellae sguadrine a chi lofaceva e non se ne vergognava di dirlo."

[levy.livejournal.com]

ma che ganza la tu' mamma! XDDDD

[little-firestar.livejournal.com]

eh, mamma è sempre stata molto "avanti", e se c'è una cosa che odia è l'ipocrisia. inoltre, io non affronterò il discorso tanto apertamente con lei, ma sa che non sono mai stata una santa nè tanto moralista e che sono di orizzonti aperti, e che perciò non mi scandalizzo di nulla o quasi (di ciò che è legale). l'unica cosa che è sempre stata tabù, come "da fare" e non come argomento, in casa mia, è la droga, leggera o pesante che fosse. (e le sigarette, ma quelle sono legali, e comquneuq sono un no-no più perchè mio padre è quasi andato all'altro mondo con un bell'enfisema polmonare quando avevo 4 anni). come funzionassero sesso e rirpsoduzione,a vendo avuto un fratello che ero già "grandina" mi era stata già spiegato attraverso i libri apposta, e poi crescendo non mi è mai stato detto "no", ma solamente di prendere TUTTE le precauzioni del caso, e poi la scelta era mia e non c'era nulla di cui vergognarsi. (e mia amdre, donna di mondo quale è, aggiunse: che tu lo faccia con uomini o donne non importa :))
dopotutto, stiamo o non stiamo parlando della donna che quando avevo 4 anni ha fatto sì che imparassi a memoria le canzoni dei queen?